The confession of a broken heart (Letter to dad)

from blog http://redmelati.blogspot.com

I'm so emotional now. It's creepy.

Maybe it's the midnight breeze... and all of the sudden this song played on my player.



Emotionless, by Good Charlotte.



I used to like this song because I originally thought I can relate to the lyrics. Then I heard the part "I miss you", and all of the sudden the song is not in my fave list anymore.

But now that I'm 22, and I've learned that anyone have their own potentials on being jerks no matter how angelic they can look like, I totally approve this song.

I'm imagining I'm sending a letter to my dad exactly like this.

Exactly like this.




*****


Hey dad,
I'm writing to you
Not to tell you that I still hate you
Just to ask you how you feel
and how we fell apart
How this fell apart

Are you happy out there in this great wide world?
Do you think about your son?
Do you miss your little girl?
When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night?
Do you even wonder if we're all right?

But we're all right
We're all right

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother's heart
You broke your children for life
It's not ok, but we're all right
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now, I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive

The days I spent so cold, so hungry
were full of hate
I was so angry
Those scars run deep inside this tattooed body
There's things I'll take to my grave
But I'm okay
I'm okay

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother's heart
You broke your children for life
It's not ok, but we're all right
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive
Now, I'm still alive

Sometimes I forgive
Yeah, and this time I'll admit,
that I miss you
said I miss you


******


Ironic, that I used to hate him so much. But now, how I wish he would call, even if that means my scars will bleed again...