When the song hit you right on spot!

What is my horoscope predict for me today? IS IT "Your past will come back to you"? OR IS IT "Something will make your heart glitch and it is you to decide to do nothing or let your heart fell for it"?



Either way, does it matter? Someone from my past came back to my present, except that that person's returning was not much a present for me. It's more like a mere "Asam Pedas Negeri Sembilan" - so sensational at the first taste, but the more I eat, the hotter I felt, and before I knew it, even cups of milk couldn't heal the pain on my tastebuds! And since I'm not a spicy-food eater, "Asam Pedas Nogori" is such a painful experience for me....



And this morning when I learned about that person-from-my-past's comeback, and to know that that person had moved on smoothly while I'm still trapped in blue, my mind can't focus on anything. I can't even focus on my food! (I usually love eating, but not at this time...)



And later I found another fact that I was blamed for my disappearance from a certain person. Well, I figured out from a friend, so I can't be sure of the exact factual conversation, but this kinda make me pissed off!



And both the fact.....



I learned.....



When this song was accidentally played in my MP3:

No sir,
well I don't wanna be the blame,
not anymore.
It's your turn,
to take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities...
Well I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win.
That's what you get when you let your heart win.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win.

I wondered,
how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things,
I never learn.
Oh why?
All the possibilities.

I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when
you let your heart win.
That's what you get when you let your heart win.
I drowned out all my sense with the
sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win.

Pain, make your way to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start... Start,
hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?
That's what you get when you let your heart win!

Beauty and The Beast

I just watched the animation movie Beauty and The Beast. That was my first time watching (surprising, I know. I mean, it's a must-see movie to be watched back when I was a kid, and the movie had been on screen for about a decade, I think).

Well, I wanna make a confesion.

It may sound lame, but.....







I cried!

True! I cried watching it! Well, for those who know me should know that I dont cry for silly reasons. And to cry over the injured prince who I knew all along that he was gonna have his HAPPY EVER AFTER in a minute... for a 19-year-olds, that was SILLY.




But there's one thing that came to my mind:

If the worse-looking is the guy, we call "Beauty and the Beast". But what about of the not-so-good looking (well, i cant say ugly...that's harsh, even for me...) is the girl?







Handsome and the Hare?

BECAUSE I'M HOT! And they are, too.

• My class would start in 5 minutes but I didn't care. I went back to hostel which took me about 10 minutes just so I can drive to grab an iced cocounut at the stalls outside the campus. Why? BECAUSE I'M HOT! And a cocounut drink is so refreshing (and my fav~)
• Instead of walking to class which only take about 10 minutes if one only walk slowly, Miss N drove her Spike to class, which took her about 15 minutes (travelling, find parking spot, and walk to the building. Why? BECAUSE SHE'S HOT! And with the sun blazing HOT, walking only makes her sweat.
• The guy I saw in the parking area this morning had a red face. Why? Because HE'S BURNING HOT inside after found out there was a tiny scratch on his Satria and he never realize it before.
• I met a girl in a sexy top yesterday near the post office (not that I care, I'm not a lesbo anyway). If anybody ever asked her why she dressed up that way, I wonder what she'd answer. Maybe, "BECAUSE I'M HOT"?
• In hell, there'd be a lot of screaming and moaning. If you ever wonder why, you'll know the people screamed because THE HELL IS HELLISHLY HOT and they are burning inside, screaming "THIS IS HOT!". By then, the HOTNESS they felt before they died felt so WARM and COZY....

SO that's mean I'm CRAZY? Hell, NO!

I googled out about mental illnesses for my writing (I love to write stories, just for fun). I came across several mental illness - phobias and disorders. And I also discover something - I have ALL the symptoms of a disorder called.......

Err...

I'm not gonna name it here. It's just too awkward to be said out loud. Well, people hardly notice the symptoms in me (or at least that's what I think), and that's exactly one of the symptoms!

Well, that's one clue I give you.

It's not something harmful, really, but it's crushing me from the inside, very slowly. The effect is gonna take place in me soon, little by little, as was told by those articles. If I don't change my attitude now, I'm gonna be crushed soon (hey, I'm not talking about insanity or anything, okay!).

But, seriously. Just imagine you are in my position. You discover that you have a certain mental disorder out of the blue. It's gonna crash you soon, but people will not notice that since the illness is gonna consume you so slowly that people just think you're just a normal care-free person who just being herself!

I dunno why I'm posting this. I don't even know why I care, since it's not a serious matter (as I see it. I mean, people will never think I'm crazy anyway). Adoi la... What am I writing?

Hari Keputeraan Selangor = Hari Meronggeng

MidValley - like a sardin can, packed with thousands of people wanting to spend their holiday with friends, partner, and family. But it's too crammed, and suffocating, and noisy! I don't think I have agoraphobia (afraid of public places or crowded places), but in such a place, I feel like I was having one, a serious one!

But I managed to survive anyway.

But I was all moody and anxious the whole day. I was faking a happy face all the time (but I can only do that halfway (-_-")) And with no movie (the line is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay tooooooooooo loooooooong!!!!), my moods was at its bottom ever! I hope my anxiety wasn't so obvious, but I think my frown was apparent!

So no need to describe about the whole situation.

But I met someone at the mall! He called out my name and he seemed to know me for long. o_O There's one name in my head - Apit (a petname. I'm sure his college friends don't call him that). But is he him? Really? What if I'm wrong? I didn't even dare to ask him anything. So..... I just call him by "weh" and "kau". What to do... I met Apit only a couple of times, and it was a looong time ago. We used to contact each other often, but not anymore. And plus, the capacity of my brain is so small, can't remember too much! Heh~

Ahaha.... What a shame! But now you know, that if I call you by "weh" or "ko" and not your name, hurm.... You know what that means.... LOL.

Movie? Hangguk Lu!

Ceh! This is what we called JANJI MELAYU! So excited giving out promises to treat for movies and stuff, and then got cancelled last minute. Haaa.... Baru prasan takde duit ke bang oi?

*~I'm officially MERAJUK with those guys~*




Ape buzz2? Aku tgh bad mood nih!

Layan je la... (malas2 taip -____-)

BUT don't think you'll get away with just a set of tosai at mamak's

And I won't take just a roti canai either!

More!!!! More!!!!!

Hahaaaaa..... You gonna regret that.......






** Study D. Lo lg baek ~_~ **





And to Syahir: Weyyyy..... No fair..... Our challenge (the movie ticket collection - who's gonna collect the most (see previous post))started last month. You can't just mixing your collection with old ones. No fair!~ I know I'm still far behind, but I'll catch you up in no time. You just wait till the day come ^O^

Movie for This Week

This is my first movie since I got back to college.

QUARANTINE

Was it just me or the movie is kinda frightening? I screamed twice at my seat. So embarrassing! But the lady sitting behind me seemed to be more frightened. She went "Allahu akbar" all the way! Haha... Funny lady...

The video... I kinda feel dizzy watching a view of the lens of the cameraman. The cameraman suppose to be a professional one, since he has to record a video for the host for a reality show (it's like a discovery program).

But the good thing about this movie is... it's not a ghost story - it's about a fatal disease which is similar to rabies but a worse one. So all the scary faces on the character makes a little sense, and we won't be like "oww.... that's so fake~" (although i think they overmade the character's faces). And the story is full of suspense, and makes us wanna know more on what's going on in the movie. I like it when I scream! ^o^

Overall, I give 3.5 out of 5! *Applause*

My opinion: You better watch it in the big screen, not on DVD or on PC - it'll make the suspense go away....

First Week (-_-")

Internet Connection

Good News: It had been upgraded.

Bad News: The connection is soooo damn slow, it took us almost half an hour to open a Yahoo! and almost impossible to open anything, even to open an intranet page (pages generated inside the college and only can be viewed by using the LAN port in our apartments).

And today we've finally know what did the department do to the connection. We got an email from the departnment saying:

To ensure a better and faster internet services by reducing some of this activities
a. Online gaming / LAN Party.
b. Video streaming / direct downloads.
c. File transfer via IM (yahoo messenger, skype, etc).
d. File sharing other than http's web server.
e. Tunneling for download unnecessary material
as it can cause negative effect to the network performance. If these activities still continue at the current level, web filtering software will be applied and certain websites blocking will be deploy starting this semester.

But the thing is.... the connection only make our connection worse! And they even reducing LAN Party? And video streaming? And direct downloads? And what did they mean by unnecessary downloads???Uggghhhhhhh!!!! These people never think!!!!! Are we paying RM245 per room per month just for this??? Ceh!!!

Retake Subject
I went to see my advisor to discuss about my current GPA. I usually don't like to be nagged, especially by someone I just met for the first time (I never met him before. Lousy advisee), but all his words really struck me with all the shot so accurate! He list out all my possible bad habits in class and my bad study style, which almost all of them are correct!

He advised me to retake 2 subjects, which cost RM1323 each! Mane nak cekau $$$$$???? So I decided to only retake 1 subject. Sorry sir!

Witch Guard
I fought with my old enemy, an Indian guard from last semester. Huh... So tiring. And I didn't give enough effort to pull her down (I'm trying to be a better person this sem...). I wrote about this this afternoon, but the saving was failed and I lost my story. Ceh! If I rajin, I'll write here OK!